Dating : Completely By RobinD 07/22/19

Completely
By RobinD
07/22/19

It’s been said, “we were not meant to live alone”.

I took that to heart and began searching early on

for the one who would complete me…be

my better half.

The note read, “will you go with me?” I was 9. Ha! I laugh

because he never got the note…thankfully, I choked

Instead I spent hours and years alone…did me some

lookin’ at the sun rays as they would come

into the window, any window under which I could relax

I didn’t call it meditation at the time but it definitely was that.

And that’s where I’d just BE…getting to know me.

As a child, I was my own person, had my own mind, read a lot

not easily convinced, questioned everything I was taught

but it got really hard to BE differently…got caught up

learned to fit in…be a wretch undone…that I wasn’t enough.

I now believe the journey BACK to me began…right then.

Spent so much time searching outside myself for

“my savior” spiritual and physical…”I need more”,

Yes, at the ripe old age of 12, I told myself it was time

to find him and HE would be the reason to my rhyme

because “I’m incomplete” (the story went) as simply ME.

38 years later, after decades of looking outside, I

shut out all the noise, found my own voice, I

went back to the windows, sun rays, silence, I

went back and found ME waiting patiently there, I

reconnected to my…spiritual guide… the one inside

I dismissed the lie that said that I was half not whole

Needed to spend my energy in search of a soul

mate — aka better half, prince, knight, savior…no

I re-membered my purpose, my passion, my own soul

Centered in Creator, we put ME back together.

The journey back to me has truly been worth

every lesson learned, every moment since birth

I value every moment of mistaken identity

it had to be…so that I could know, love, BE me

Authentically…true to me…Completely.

Love you,
RobinD, PhD