Dating : It fell on my head

I used to carry with me an innocent happiness full of smile and laughter. I used to go to sleep and wake up early. I had healthy life habits and I was working hard to achieve my professional ambition.

But one day, it fell on my head.

All my healthy habits were taken away by a tsunami of emotions. I couldn’t fall asleep at night. I couldn’t eat. My mind was floating in a soft and fluffy cotton. I couldn’t focus at work because only one thing was on my mind, only one person.

It fell on my head.

I suddenly discovered new passions and I learnt new skills to impress her. I started to go to gym again to get the six packs I always said I’ll have. I bought new clothes. I learnt how to do my declaration in every language, and I learnt the language she speaks.

It fell on my head.

I checked my phone every minute to see if she had sent me anything. I sent her messages, a lot of messages. I tried to stop but every minute my brain would call for an injection of happiness, so I gave up resisting and sent her a lot of texts. That’s why I couldn’t sleep at night. I wanted to see her, to be with her to hold her hand. I wanted to have intimate and deep conversations, touch her skin, hold her hand and swim in her scent.

It fell on my head.

A new addiction, a new obsession, like I never felt before. A deep feeling mixing emotions and rational thoughts. First, I was attracted by her eyes, by the way she moved, the aura around her. She was perfect, could speak English, had a degree and a lot of ambition in life. She was strong, independent and beautiful. During the night when I couldn’t sleep, I was imagining myself introducing her to my parents, bringing her to my home country and traveling the world together.

It fell on my head.

She was an obsession which gave sense to my life. Before, I was working 10 hours a day, I was earning a lot of money. After meeting her, every minute I wouldn’t spend with her was like a waste of time, a torture. I would see her in every face on the street. I used to be very careful with money, now I would spend all my savings to see her smile appear on her pretty face. All my money for one smile.

It fell on my head.

A friend told me she had a boyfriend and every time I thought of it; I got sick of it. I had a stomachache and my guts started to cry and hurt. My brain became ice and my body fire. I was numb and dumb. Still, I have the hope that one day she would be free and would accept my declaration. I will wait, because nobody could replace her. Because she is the one.

Because it fell on my head.