Dating : Will I Always Love My Ex?

“A broken heart is just the growing pains necessary so that you can love more completely when the real thing comes along.” — J.S.B. Morse

Every heartache is different, but anyone who has ever loved and lost in their lifetime will know that for whatever strange reason, some heartbreaks sting far, far worse than others do.

Why is that? Why can we sometimes love someone and move on so easily when other times we love and shatter completely?

I don’t know the answer, but from personal experience, I’m certain that there will always be a certain kind of love that manages to get under our skin in the strangest of ways.

This is the type of love that is hardest to move on from. It makes you beg, and hope, and wish that you could forget it once it’s gone. It leaves you wishing you had never loved at all.

Why? Because when you were with them they loved you so much that they left you believing in silly things like soulmates and true love.

I once believed in soul mates and I was once certain that I had found mine. But when he left me all I wanted was to forget him and my pain and our love.

Now I don’t call him anything but my first love, because I don’t really believe in soul mates or true love. I think that concept makes things a little harder for me, because I have loved plenty of people in my lifetime, but have been “in love” with very few.

And the first time you find yourself in love with someone, you realize that it is an immensely strange and beautiful yet terrifying experience.

It is as if your heart, your capacity to love and feel, has grown ten sizes too big. Everything feels sharper, more intense, yet equally as muddy. The sadness and rage and joy all mingle together into one viscous pool. Everything seems beautiful and bright, yet there is that terrifying threat of danger lurking at the edges.