Dating : Crush: A Healing Prayer

Yes, I think you’re cute
and funny and warm
and I love that.
But I don’t want you or need you.
You are not a “thing” to be “wanted.”
You are you and that’s all you ever need to be.
You don’t need me.
You don’t need anything.
You owe me nothing.
I don’t need anything from you.
You are not a prize for me to win.

All I want
is for you to be happy
calm, rested, filled with joy
succeeding in the things you want to succeed in.
I want you to be happy
whether it’s with me as your friend
or not
or more.

I want you to know you’re deserving of love.
I don’t need you to tell me that I am
because I know I am.
I want you to experience nothing but infinite peace.
You, feeling happy, will fill me with joy.

I don’t ever want you to feel that your feelings are not valid
or that your experiences are not important.
I want you to feel seen, and loved.
I want you to see how wonderful you are.
I want you to know your worth.
All the things I want for me, I want for you.

May you never feel sad.
May fun and joy be your constant companions.
May you see yourself how I see you.
May you look at yourself with love.
May seeing you happy be enough for me.

Written September 2018