Dating : Dating in quarantine

After lockdown volume 5 in half a year, I realized i’m open to any date with whomever if it’s walking outside or just getting out of home! I guess many of us relate to that hopefully. Because I can tell from texts and dm’s are pretty much kept me going during the time. I’m being honest and try to write down one of my most heartfelt lockdown dating experience haha. Here’s how it went like.,

I remember i was genuine and did not try to stalk him so that i could know him better in person. Most of the time, we know stalking doesn’t end up good. I wonder what the guy is wearing, like is he trying or is he not, i don’t know i feel most guys go on date with just kind of keep it simple but i always appreciate the effort he put in. We had no plans but just to meet since its lockdown. He looked fine dressed up nicely, i’d give a credit on that.

In general, i’d like to have deep conversations but i’ve never had these talk go so personal so fast with somebody i just met on our first interaction. For me, he made great impression because i poorly assumed that he’s younger than me so that i’m gonna have to lead the conversation, turns out he actually led a lot of it. I didn’t feel there was like awkward silence, i could tell he was bit of nervous in the beginning and yet we were able to talk about very substantive things. Listening and getting to know the person was fun. When you’re having too much expectation, you become rigid so that you kind of lose a piece of your authenticity i believe, so i try not to think a lot about it.

I’m hesitant to embark on any deeper conversation like love lives and heartbreaks right away. I know it will eat me up alive that i would have to like long for somebody and have all this expectations and wanting to do more. It’s not about external anymore. Yet, he voluntarily shared lot about his experiences and seeing him vulnerable was an easy ice break, felt quite comfortable around him.

It went surprisingly great. It was very organic also i just think our convo went really well. I feel like we connected on like kind of those deep things and mentally where we are in life and how 2020 has been a very reflective year. we both had our guards down we shared very intimate stories and experiences in our lives. But that’s just all there is now haha. I just want to keep it this way, who knows what holds us in the future.