h2>Dating : Emotions run high
Emotions run high
Can’t tell what these are
I don’t belong in this world
Haven’t done anything in my life
I used to know these thoughts
I used to know myself
As I sit here
As I lay here
I don’t want to be here
I feel too far gone
It’s like I’m not worthy
I love around me
But today I hate me
I hate my face
I hate the way I did my hair
I hate my chubby cheeks
I hate my little eyes
I hate my body
I can’t even feel indifferent today
I’m nothing special
I try so hard to be happy for love
But I’m so tired of crying
I loathe everything about me
Inside and out
I feel crazy
I feel so tired of being here
I used to know my own thoughts
But now…
I don’t know anything
Or so it feels
They say I’m beautiful
They say I’m loved
But I can’t stop hurting myself
It’s all I think about
But I feel like a mess
I hate my mind
The way I think
The woman in the mirror
I live life through a lens
Not even my own eyes
All I can do is break down
All I want to do is scream out
I hate who I’m becoming
But I don’t know how to change
I don’t understand myself
I try to understand everyone around me
It feels like it’s easier to know them
Instead of feeling the hate for myself
I’m looking through a darkened lens
It feels like I’ll never change
No matter how hard I try
Who am I supposed to be?
Who will I be tomorrow?
Will they still love me the same?