Dating : MY PAST

MY PAST

Ajibola, I know you said you did not want to know about my past, I know that you take Ifeoluwa as your daughter. Jibola ifemi (my love), I still feel you should know. Ifemi, I am certain that we are spending this life time and possibly the next together, so I want you to know what I have endured over the years.

I’ll start with events surrounding the birth of our daughter Ifeoluwa..

I was pregnant

as I saw it

what had I done

why did I fall

he claimed to love me

but where was he now

for my baby

for his baby

he was gone

and never to return.

As I told her my story

I saw what I had done was sheer folly

then I looked back

my parents advice

I hadn’t listened

I had let them down

and he by which I was deflowered

I couldn’t imagine without a frown

I couldn’t cry over spilt milk

so I was dancing to my own music.

On the day she was to be born

t’was like I was on a bed of thorns

the pain was so intense

but my memories of him, still dense

on that night that I had refused to fight

I had never thought of an abortion

it was my sole instruction

she smiled at me, it made me weep

The product of my mistake, a promise I didn’t keep…

Ifemi, you showed up into our lives and you gave us hope. I want you to say how you feel to me, from the depth of your SOUL.