Dating : Regret

To you

You’ve written in your previous doodles to me, that for yourself, you knew you loved me from your youth.

How can that be? Did you fall in love with my gurgles and giggles?

Did you also love the hand that rocked my cradle?

Or was it because even as a child you had set out to seek redemption in your said, enemies child? Scratch that, it’s neither here nor there, my family was not your enemy, neither were my grandparents, or my parents. But above all the innocent my uncle murdered by yours.

The whole despicable lot of you.

You’re doing a fine job of it. I actually believe you’ll pull it off. Redemption that is. What did you think I meant?

My words to you, should you choose to take them to task, are,

Do not trust my love for you!

I’ve told you many a time, there are greater loves than yours or mine. Loves more noble in their nobility, family above everything, even unto losing my own soul.

You’ve cut off your family, tried to change your name. Do you remember that fateful day in the courtroom in Pigadia, when you testified.

You were asked your name by the judge. You responded with your shiny new name. I was almost thrown out of court, when I stood up against the lot of you, “He is a B#s@*r%”, I called out.

You said, to the judge that I had insulted you with the use of that name — but that is who you are!

As much, if not more than I am my fathers daughter and champion.

The judge agreed!

Do not trust me, for as much as I trust myself, I know of a more nobler love, of the kindness of the cradle, the blood and tears of the hearth you seek to baptize yourself in…

Redemption? Hmmm, I think you just my pull it off.

You pull words from the depths of bottomless well. Words that glisten with dew drops that you crave to quench from, words I will not return, and you will thirst.

Maybe, that is your penance, maybe it is mine, who knows these things, ehhh?

The gods be with you, although I believe they entertain themselves with your plight, my plight.

As for the redemption, you seek it for the name you were born into, who you are.

Not what you are trying to become,

If you are new, reborn, what are you trying to redeem?

I on the other hand, have one name, always will, a name you should not blasphemy by bringing it to your lips. Not even upon a prayer…

There is no greater love than family, above God and Man.

“I would go on and post to him what I had written. I felt compelled to save his life. His life was forfeited, up for grabs, for the life of the innocent, my uncle. Their best for ours. He left never to return. He left for me. He was the best thing to ever come out of that murderous lot. My greatest regret… his redemption”