Dating : Diary of an Insomniac- Entry Nine

Its 4:49, I’ve tossed and turned countless times. I’ve closed my eyes and tried to force myself to sleep, it didn’t work. So I picked up my phone and decided to make an entry. It’s been a while, I know. I can’t even begin to describe the kind of year I am having.

Autumn Tree — Milo Greene

I just checked, the last time I made an entry was in 2018. Wow, how time flies. I could have sworn my last entry was last year. Anyway, let’s not dwell too much on that. So much has happened since my last entry, I can’t even begin to summarize. I have grown so much since my last entry, and this growth came with self realization (to a significant extent).

Imagine Dragons — Birds

As usual, this diary series is about me writing down my raw (random?) unedited thoughts at ungodly hours with music blaring out in the background. I am doing a 30-days writing challenge with my friend and the first entry is “outside the window”. It got me thinking of how I love night time and how I want to be on the beach at night. I want to dive naked into the freezing water at night and gaze at the stars through the lens of the sea water.

King Promise — My Lady

I was also thinking about how I love living for the thrill. I like excitement, intensity, adventure, risk, activities that gets my blood pumping and my heart racing. I used to think it was because I like to know how things work or feel or what it encompasses but then I realized it was more than just my curiosity. It was also impulse, need for spontaneity, thrill, excitement, and the experience of discovering a new feeling at an heightened level. It’s a different sort of high, and it hits different when the feeling doesn’t meet up with expectations. I’m not exactly sure that it’s a good thing, but it’s not a bad thing either.

Lana Del Rey — Dark Paradise

I’ve been trying a lot of different things nowadays and venturing out of my comfort zone (expect getting my angles right or even like being in front of the camera it seems). I found some old notepads of mine, it was nostalgic going through all the different things I wrote in them. Reading them brought back so many memories and emotions. It also reinforced the need to frequently journal what you’re going though at that moment, it helps a lot when you want to reflect or introspect.

Vancouver Sleep Clinic — Sleeping World

I’m feeling a bit sleepy now, it’s 5:20. I still have to wake up early because I have work to do, welp. I’ll stop here,l even though I have so much to say.

Till next time, do something risky (but legal), take a chance and dare to FEEL.

Love and everything nice,

R.