Dating : Pretty hurts

Let’s get straight to the point, pretty hurts! And, that’s true based on my life experiences until date.

I have often received compliments on my body type and facial features even before getting to know me and this has led me to to grow tired of hearing the same goddamn words over and over again. Yeah I know I have assets and genes that tag along, so what?! What about the person underneath the layers? What about the person who wants to have a real conversation about the intricacies of life and the world? What about a soulful deep conversation that most of us shy away from? What about revealing the dark side of ourselves by letting go of inhibitions and materiality?

Don’t get me wrong, I am grateful for my ancestors and parental genes to grant me what most often girls only wish for and in order to achieve that based on social pressure or innate desires, some even get plastics done. If you are one of that kind, please go ahead by all means. Do as you please as I am no one to judge. In the past, I had taken advantage of my assets (guilty!) to get my crush to become a relationship — which by the way ended with toxicity and drama I’d never dreamt could be possible. I now do my daily yoga, weekly workouts and intermittent dancing not to look appealing but to become the fittest for the benefit of a wholesome life and the after-feeling leaves me high in activity throughout the day.

The hard truth I’ve come to experience after living in this body for as long as I have, leaves me wondering if this world is mostly material with little significance to the self.

I have met few trusted companions who have placed importance to speech and friendship, but the rest seem to have diverged into a path of visual prestige and temporary satisfaction. Which brings to the ever burning question inside of me, when are we going to grow out of this dark spell? Can we keep aside the conventional body image of a big ass and big breasts and instead look into the interiority of an individual? How long will we live appreciating assets rather than what’s inside our bodies?

I am not going to give the satisfaction to the reader with answers to the above questions.

I would rather leave you with these questions so you can think to yourself on what you had been as an individual with the world outside, how you want to be henceforth and where you would like to go in this journey of life.