Dating : Watching a movie

We are in the cinema. She is just watching me quietly.

I scream. I put my hand in my head. I pull my hair.

Now she is watching the movie. I hit myself on the front seat: it is not enough: I git myself on the floor: I put my right hand behind my head, pulling my hair, and I put my left hand flat on the floor. I push my head with my hand on the floor. Feels good. I start to feel a little dizzy, but it is ok.

I return to my seat. She continues watching the movie. It has a nice plot. Again. I fall to my knees. I push my right knee back a little, the left is in front. My torso turns to the right. I pull my hair with my right hand, I put my left hand flat on the floor. I push my head with my hand on the floor: anesthesia. I start to feel dizzy. I stay for a while with my head on the floor.

I return to my seat. She is eating popcorn. I continue watching the movie. But I blinked. I whimper a little. It sounds like a squawk. I am in the forest. I am cutting down the trees; my sadness knocks down five trees (other people would prefer to work in an office). I believe that in a few days I am going to start digging very deep, until I see another sky. I will go down to find my self very high. Lie. It is not enough. When I find my self in another land, I must continue digging again and again.

She continues watching the movie, quietly.