Dating : Welcome to Opposite Land

I wish I could break free from opposite land.

I wish I could live in the present reality.

But the truth is my brain works differently from others’.

Truth is my reality is removed from others’.

It’s alien to them.

People misunderstand me but I can’t tell them the truth about my illness.

In my world whatever I say, the opposite comes true.

So I say mean, negative things.

I say things that shouldn’t be said out aloud.

I say it because I know the opposite will come true.

I see my relationships breaking because of the things I say, and yet my love for those relationships is so strong, so great,

That I continue to say the wrong things.

In the knowledge that the opposite will come true.

I don’t care that I’ll be left alone, because of all the ill things I say.

All I care about is the opposite coming true.

All I care about is the people I love being happy.

And so I’ll keep saying the worst things.

No matter how it makes the people I love, hate me.

I’d rather be hated than have any ill befall them.

I’d rather love in isolation,

Than weep in company.

No more tears for those I love.

May they all prosper and find happiness.

Regardless of how alone that leaves me.

I have an illness, and that’s my prison.

I can’t tell them about opposite land.

God gave me this power for a reason.

And I cannot,

Should not,

Break the spell.