Dating : A Letter To The Love Of My Life

Dear love of my life,

I don’t know who you are. At least, not yet. Being true to myself, writing this in letter format, I’m writing this letter to let you know what my fifteen year old self thinks of you, but I don’t really have way too much to say.

I need you to know that I am not perfect. Heck, I’m furthest from it. There’s going to be a time where I’m going to turn my back on you. From helping me, I mean. Because I’m the type of person who is incredibly afraid of myself. I am going to need you to be there for me almost constantly and I do not, DO NOT expect you to be okay with that, I don’t expect anything of you. I just want; and what I want is a shoulder, a hug, a little note if you feel like, some flowers, and I prOMISe to return the favour, because I think I know the importance of communication in a relationship.

I also need you to know that I know you are not perfect, and I will try my level best to love your flaws more than I probably already do, because one of the best peope I know once told me that ‘preish, you don’t love someone in spite of, you love someone because.’ I’m here to tell you that if I love you, I love you because and there is nothing on this earth that is ever going to dilute my absolute love for you. Unless you become an absolute piss off, that is.

We are bound to hit rough patches. There was an instagram quote that read, “Just remember that when you fight, it is the two of you against the problem, not you against them.” That just stuck with me because that is what I want you and I to remember. I want you and I to be the type of couple that go through shit, but go through shit together, hand in hand with a huge smile on our faces, because when I’m with you, that’s all I can do.

You probably know me better than anyone else knows me. In that case, I’m going to need you to listen when I don’t speak. I’m going to need you to read between the lines and talk to me when I do not want to listen, because you know that I have phases where I shut everyone out when I need someone the absolute, absolute most.

When I love, I love with everything I have. I fall in love head first, all in. I trust you with my heart, so please, do not break that trust. Because if I know myself I know that I am incredibly tough to handle and close to impossible to love but to you, this is fifteen year old me on paper. Just let me love you, let yourself love me, and all of it will sort itself out.

There is so much more for me to say,

But I will say it to you,

Because only you deserve to know me like this.

Know,

my happiness lies with you,

Every piece of me is yours,

I love you.