Dating : My message, To him

My message, To him

its not easy, to walk over someone who’s very important to your life, whose always there. been there from your saddest part of your life. And figure it out that the you’re relationship was toxic.

I never thought that my relationship will end up like this, me being the reasons of him leaving and at my hard time he didnt even care of me anymore. but everything was fine, i forgive him and either of him. i still love him no matter what because he was my first of everything.

And here’s my message to him ;

hey stranger, how are you

i hope you’re doin fine.

it has been a tough life since the last time we talked, and hey. i miss u i miss u everyday, every single time. I don’t know what you’ve been up to, but I hope you’re doing okay. If you’re wondering how I’m doing since you left, I am doing great. I am having the time of my life, and I am finding things that make me happier than ever before. I am focusing on what’s important: myself.

its almost 2 years since we’ve been together actually we’ve been in relationship for 1 year 4 month. Our relationship isn’t something I regret. In fact, it taught me so many lessons. The times we shared together were incredible and you made me so happy, at least for a little while, even though now we’re like a stranger

I will admit, it was a tough day/month of not having you in my life. But, I have not only gotten over it, but I wish that i will grow into a better person because of it. i cried everytime i remember us, and how fucked up i am, I no longer let people manipulate me and walk all over me. Im not going to blame myself anymore cause i believe that god has the better plan for me and for you in the future. Because everything happens for a reason

You tried to do absolutely anything and everything to make me happy. You sent me cute texts, you cheered me up when I was sad, just to see you smile, just to see you laugh snd call me “sayang” everytime. it always made my day, i love how you act like a 5 year old in a candy shop with me, and you loved me. While all these things made me happy, it was only temporary happiness. I have now realized you’re happy without me, and thats easy for you and i glad u did, and I no longer have to rely on you for my happiness.

Thankyou for your “goodbye words” All of your harsh words and childish acts toward the end of our relationship made me discover the scary person you could be. And how our relationship gonna be. Looking back now, the relationship was never healthy picking you over my family, because you’re my priority at that time. i gave you everything till i forgot people around me, because i always put you first.

And I put my all into my relationships and I did everything I could to make you stay. i know that this is the best for us. For you and for me But, everything happens for a reason, and i believe that there was definitely a reason our relationship came to an end. And ya i never have a guts to say this but im sorry for this over 2 years, sorry for everything i’ve done to you that hurts you and I love you a lot because theres no fucking hell that someone could replace you.