Dating : How can you begin to look for someone to date when you are antisocial
I am extremely antisocial and average looking and also from a country where my homosexuality isn’t something embraced by society (Hong Kong) so I am closeted still at age 26. Also recently work has made some suicidal and extremely depressed. I have worked as a barback for exactly 5 months now. I have to work 6 days a week and 9-5.30 on Mon Tue Wed and 9-6.30 on Thur Fri Sat, I feel swamped and bogged down by work and especially I’m the only Hong Kong Chinese in a company where management in Nepalese and there’s like 10 Nepalis and 3 Filipinos I have to work with on an almost daily basis. Some of them are bitches and some of them are just nightmarish guys to work with and I think my antisociality has brought out the worst in me and when somebody I felt has mistreated me or made a comment I just go on Facebook and make a shit post about it and two days ago I was like at the breaking point and after the shift I actually made tons of shit posts also on Sunday which is my day off. I felt used and abused also because I can communicate to Cantonese and Mandarin speaking customers while some of the time I have to give free drinks to these Nepali people that come in just because everything is about the Nepalese here. It’s also scaring me that I felt actually great over this weekend and actually had a really nice sleep after making all the shit posts and I feel like the only thing I can do is to find love and find somebody to date so I can harness bettter and more positive energy but I feel like I am antisocial and the city is also antisocial as a culture and I also feel like I am a bit racist in trying to find someone in a relationship I only want to find white people or really good looking local guys but at the same time I felt like nobody is like wanting me I feel unwanted.
