Dating : Anxious, advice needed.
Went on my first date with a woman that is absolutely beautiful and thoughtful.
We had a great time went out for drinks, then she suggested we go out and walk around we walked and talked for like 5 hours, she jokingly grabbed my hand as we crossed the street, then later I asked to hold her hand and she said, “No one has asked me that in a long time” and we proceeded to hold hands, it felt so natural as she interlaced her fingers between mine.
Talked in her car for an hour till 2 AM as she ran her fingers over my veins and her bouncing her finger off of them and since she is a nurse she said I have good veins. She then said, “if you want to kiss me I would wait till next time because I have smokers breath so we both can enjoy it” I didn’t even mention kissing or was even thinking about it, (she is trying to quit.) by the end she had both hands under and over mine. We hugged and she seemed to linger a bit as like a 10 – 15 second hug that I literally for the first time in my life have experienced that « I am melting into you » embracement.
Now the problem is, I am getting super anxious. We are trying to hang out Thursday and we have a date set up the 18th for her birthday. I have never been or even dreamt of being with a woman this amazing, she asked most of the questions and genuinely felt interest in me, I can’t wrap my head around that. She has always explained everything as in slow responses or her life plans as in availability or explaining why somedays won’t work.
The fun part:
I am terrified she will find a better guy than me and just jet off or she is using me for attention/pitying me.
What should I do here? She said she wants to continue going on dates and hanging out.
I know a lot of this is my own past relationships getting me down, this is the first person in 28 years of my life that seems healthy and it is scary, I have done a lot of work on myself to be a person I love, so finding someone in the same place is oddly terrifying as if I don’t deserve it.
Advice?
It sounds like she’s into you, so far you are doing well! Women want a confident man, not someone who is afraid that they’ll find someone better. Be confident when you are with her and kiss her like you mean it!