Dating : Feel like I (25M) messed it up with a girl(25F) after first date

Dating : Feel like I (25M) messed it up with a girl(25F) after first date

So quick background, I had two long term relationships (2 years and 8 months) as the extent of my Post High school dating life and was cheated on the first one, and the second one she was flirting/texting guys while we were together until I broke up with her. On to the story:

I met this girl Ashley at a party at her place (friend of the roommate who invited me). Talk, hangout, make food at 2 in the morning and ended up talking, making out and sleeping together. We end up making plans for a date that was this past Friday and we ended up having a fantastic time. Kissing, holding hands, talking. The venue I chose, she admitted, she wasn’t excited for but ended up having a blast and didn’t want to leave. I take her back to her place, we make out some more, and I leave her be – I guess she wanted to see if I wanted more than sex, which I do, so nothing happened. The very next day however, shit went sideways. I was planning on having a guys day. We are all hanging out and drinking. We are having a good time, but I was having a rough day. My sister, who lived right next to me, is the only family within 7 hours of me, was moving that day. We are like best friends, talk everyday, hangout once or twice a week. My BiL is also awesome. They just had my nephew and have two dogs. They found out two weeks ago that my BiL was given a promotion and they were to move ASAP to start this new job which is 9 hours way. So to sum it up, two weeks notice to move 9 hours away, so they are busy and I get to see them only once more before they move. So the whole day, I was super bummed. In the middle of the day, boys and I decide to get food so we walk to a local restaurant, he said, « oh btw Friend and Ashley are going to be here in 15 minutes ».

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This is where I feel like I screwed up. she shows up and I have no idea what we are – slept together once and went on one date. I am visibly upset and I can’t think of anything to say at the table of 8 people so I say nothing. I try to slip away, give the excuse that I needed to check on my dog and get something else done(true statement. I had to go to my sisters house and help throw away all the shit she missed and grab anything they couldn’t carry so the Realtor doesn’t throw it away while selling their house). I got called out as being weird and trying to dodge my friends and Ashley so I get reeled into hanging out with them more but they ended up getting invited by my friends to my house. We get there and once I notice everybody mingling I slip away again and take a nap because I was so stressed out. I don’t have social anxiety, between being upset my sister just moved away and the fact that my crush I just went on a date with the night before is there I am just freaking out. I don’t want to be there and in a bad mood around her and possibly screw it up more. Everybody ended up being over for 6-7 hours and I wasn’t happy about it. I explained and apologized to Ashley the next day (Sunday) and she said it was fine, we texted a bit and I asked her on a tentative second date next week which she said yes to-nothing official just the venue and a possible time as this week I am busy and going out of town for the weekend. Issue is we haven’t talked since. I feel like me being aloof the whole day really screwed things up. Am I crazy or is it the fact that I haven’t dated in so long that this is causing me to over-analyze everything, or did I definitely just screw this up? lol