Dating : Help
I have been in a long distance relationship for a year and a half now, and I meet my gf every summer since 2017. I have been depressed lately and I can’t seem to be myself due to stress of school, my future and getting a job this summer. I applied to 127 places and no one hired me and my parents tell me everyday not to give up and they probably feel it as much as I do. All my close friends work and have no time for me and I don’t enjoy going outside anymore to run or drive places. All i’ve done is purchase stuff online, workout at home, watch anime and most of all play videogames.
The real problem is that my gf and I are extremely close to each other and she doesn’t realize how or what im going through is serious on my end. Our communication was great and all but these last 2 months have been silence and a fake persona on my end. I can’t bring myself up to talk to her and she (doesn’t talk that much) realizes something is wrong but does not take the effort to help me out. She just asks me what’s wrong and I explain myself and that’s it.
She’s always busy with work and has no time to talk with me either. When she does get the time off she plays videogames with guy friends or naps. Anyways, the problem is that she is gonna be here in 19 days or something and Im not sure how to deal with myself within that time span. I want to make sure she has a good time here before she leaves and me being fake or hiding my emotions isn’t going to change anything.
Reading this over and i sound like an idiot lol. (Btw i tend to put myself down all the time)
First I understand in a way. My gf is going through a depression right now and doesn’t talk much or at all sometimes. Your gf is coming to see you which I hope is exciting for you!! The best thing you can do, if you want to be with her and care for her, is be honest and tell her what you’re going through. She can only know what you tell her. Maybe make a little list of cool things to do or see in your area also so you don’t have to think up stuff to do when she gets there? You can both, have a decen time with her AND communicate. Good luck, hope it works out for you.