Dating : Hope and love sucks
I’m 20 M. I’m at the point where I cant feel love. I have the problem where I used to get addicted to love. My best friend (we have dated a few times, but she and I have stayed best friends) kissed me on the cheek the other day as a friendly peck. But it reanimated feelings of love and hope that I put away. I legit cant function properly when feeling love. I cant work or sleep when I have those feelings. I may be destined to never love again. I’m okay with that. The other little part of me doesn’t. But whatever. Hope creates feelings of love, screw that shit. No hope, no love, no emotions, and no kisses from my bestie and I can function normally. I have a girlfriend who I do not love but care about. She loves me. But I lie everytime i say i love you. But it’s the only way to make sure everyone is happy, including me.
I guess I just want people to know that you arent obligated to love. Nor is everyone destined to love. True love is only fairy tale shit. Happens sometimes, maybe. I’m not a player either. But I dont care. As long as I dont meet someone perfect, i can survive this world.
