Dating : I keep doubting that my girlfriend actually likes me
So I started dating this girl about 3 months ago and it’s been pretty good so far. We started talking about 5 and a half months ago and it seems relatively solid. I’m an 18 year old guy and she’s 16. We get along pretty well but we haven’t really had a chance to see each other often because of school and stuff on the weekends but our last day is Tuesday so hopefully that pans out okay.
We have done stuff together a few times, went on a few dates technically I guess and they’ve been good. We haven’t gotten really physically/intimate yet, I’ve put my arm around her a few times and I guess we cuddled technically last weekends but that’s it. Neither of us are really experienced at all it looks like which isn’t helping. We’re both kinda awkward which makes things go slower too but I don’t really mind at all. We went to prom together, slow danced and everything so it seems like everything is okay.
I’m just afraid that she’s losing interest and not saying anything about it. My last relationship involved a girl that was extremely narcissistic and has shattered what little self esteem and confidence I was able to build up to that point. Everything seemed fine, yet one day she called quits and refused to have any contact with me which broke me.
She purposely went out of her way to hurt me with the breakup that I didn’t deserve at all. She said how “she could do so much better” than being stuck with me and how I wasn’t “big enough to pick her up”, (keep in mind this girl is fucking 5 10”. So now I’m still somewhat hurt and I’m worried ab it ever happening again. The girl I’m seeing now doesn’t seem like she’s that way but I can’t stop myself from doubting it and it’s driving me nuts.
Tl;dr -I feel like a bad relationship is going to happen all over again even though I’m 90% sure everything is fine. Self doubt and a lack in confidence from being hurt in a last relationship is scaring me with it possibly repeating. It just feels too good to be true and I don’t know why. I’m probably overthinking as I usually do but I can’t get closure.