Dating : I think I should call it off.

Dating : I think I should call it off.

I’ve over the last year been building up to entering into my first serious relationship in half a decade.

She’s been a close part of my life for a while now but there’s a good distance between us and our conflicting work schedules mean that we’ve only been able to see each other 1 week in every 6.

Earlier on we’d compensate this with calls long calls and lots of messages. These have died down a lot.

I’ve made it clear that to progress any further, we’ve got to solve the issue of seeing each other more, and she’s been working on that and I’m thankful.

I’ve recently become acutely aware of the fact that I’ve avoided dating over some deep rooted trust issues that I’m working on.
As she starts to enter into a more normal social life, I’m finding it hard to trust her through issues from my own past.
I don’t ever want her to stop living life for me but when she drinks she loses all consideration for how I feel entirely. Tonight simply telling me that she’s very drunk and won’t even be sending me a single message (I don’t expect her to sit on her phone all night, just a quick hello is enough every couple of hours) this, just freaks me out and she knows it.

The sheer stress the whole situation is making me want to call it off now.
But I love her.

Thoughts?