Dating : I am really into a girl but I feel like I have to move on…

Dating : I am really into a girl but I feel like I have to move on…

…so I asked her straight up to just break my heart.

Let me explain the reasoning behind my request:

I met a girl who is litterally what my ideal soulmate is supposed to be: accepting, caring, attentionate, smart, and really fun to be around.
The problem is, I was too curious avout her past, which she wanted to forget due to the traumas she’s been through. I hurt her and I am perfectly aware of that fact. I regret it a lot.

I still have feelings for her because I really enjoy her company and who she is as a person.
But seeing how she keeps me at arm’s length (which is understandable), I feel like I need to move on and kind of « lose » my feelings for her. So the best way is to basically ask her to break my heart instead of playing games with me. Because a heartbreak will hurt a lot at the start but it’ll go away over time. Being kept at arm’s length hurts the same way ALL OF THE TIME.

I am kind of getting sick of those charades that are being played between her and me right now, and seeing that I have nothing to lose anymore, I’m going all in.