Dating : I love that feeling of matching with someone new OLD. That you click with. Can flirt with. Text with. My heart is racing. I’ve got butterflies and big smiles…can’t wait to meet him…then never see him again.
It can all disappear in an instant. If we meet and there’s no chemistry. And what if there is chemistry, but he doesn’t feel it as strongly. Or he’s playing me. Or…it’s just not a good fit. I’ve been through all that just in the last two weeks. I mean that’s what dating is all about right. Getting to know each other. Video chatting. Loving the sound of their voice. Waking up to their texts. Then. Falling short of ideals…and suddenly that person who was a big part of your life, for three or four days, is gone. Such a roller coaster. And I want to get off.
I want this feeling for the last time. I so badly want it to work this time. I’ve got that optimistic naive love is blind thing happening. I keep saying I’m not going to wear my heart on my sleeve.
I know I’m opening myself to more heartache. And I’m charging forward anyway. Like an idiot lol. But. This one is different! I tell myself. I can feel it!
As always, Hopeful that this will be my last first date. It’s the only way I can keep doing this! It’s draining.
Wish me luck. I hope to be back with an inspirational success story soon! And I hope you all find your last first date too.