Dating : I want a happy healthy relationship but I’m scared of trying.

Dating : I want a happy healthy relationship but I’m scared of trying.

Didn’t really know how to phrase the title in a way that made sense so let me just explain exactly what I mean.

Basically last year I actually fell in the love properly for the first time in my life but it all went to shit because it turned out she was just an incredibly dishonest person (I hate dishonest people fyi) and if I’m being honest I think I was also partly to blame because I feel like I put her under too much pressure to be with me which probably didn’t help the issues she already had. But that’s over now and I hope she finds a way to be happy despite how things ended up.

Throughout the whole time I was talking to this girl I experienced ridiculous amounts of paranoia, anxiety, and at some times even depression, and now I can’t really see a way that I can be in any kind of relationship without worrying about things like that other guy who messages her all the time, or if she actually cares about me or is she just telling me what she thinks I want to hear?

I think we can all agree that’s fucked up right?

I don’t know if I’d go as far as to call myself a hopeless romantic but I really want to just have a happy healthy relationship without all the mental anguish, but I’m really scared that that won’t ever happen.

The world’s a shitty place and it’s full of dishonest people. What are the chances that I’d find someone who will be as open and honest with me, as I will be with them?

Also while we’re on the subject of finding people, how the fuck are you supposed to meet people these days other than shitty apps? 😂

Thank you to anyone who has read this post and any advice would be greatly appreciated 🙂