Dating : Long Distance from Amarillo to Denton ended yesterday.
I apologize for the long story in advance. My partner (F21) and I (M23) broke up yesterday. We’d been dating for nearly 3 years, but only been long distance for about a month or two. It wasn’t the distance that got us, though it sure as hell didn’t help. After she graduated, she had to move back home due to financial issues and her job not working out. This made us going from practically living together to hardly having the time to see each other, that was the first stressor. The second was that she hates her home town, it’s a tiny town of maybe a thousand people, and it’s no where near what she wants to do. Then her family can be stressful as well. The job she has drains her and her boss is incompetent and she hates it. And her dream job, well, it wasn’t going anywhere near where she wanted it to go. But I know she can do it, I believe in her with all my heart. I’ve seen countless people give up on a dream, but if anyone can do it, it’s her.
All these things just combined and put her into a huge depression and I tried, I really did, to help. I would call her and give her words of support, tell her how proud I am for keeping on, I made messages in a bottle for when she needed a little written inspiration. But she just kept drifting further and further away from me. It tore my heart out.
She was drained in every single way and had no clue what she wanted. So I told her that I’m always here when she needed me 110%. She’s my best friend. But she needed the time and space. It hurt, I’ve never hurt so much in my life, but I will do whatever I need to do so that she can succeed and so that I can succeed.
The path she was walking down was a worn and rickety Bridge, and I realized that in order for her to make it across, I’d have to get off and find my own way around. I’m going to keep moving, keep working, and keep growing all the way to the other side of this chasm. And I hope I meet her on the other side.
And if you’re reading this hon: I love you, Mein kleiner Hase, and you’re going to do amazing things. We both will.
