Dating : Vent + Breakup Advice Needed

Dating : Vent + Breakup Advice Needed

So my girlfriend of two years recently broke up with me because we are at different stages in life. She wants kids in two years and she’s convinced I won’t be at a stage where I can own a house and sustain a family. This happened two months ago. I want her back and I want to know what to do. It looks like she is already dating and or searching for someone else.

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On the day after we broke up we held one another and fell asleep together on the couch. She told me she would be willing to try again once I get things together and that if I bring her a ring 2 years down the road she would be happy to restart. Then went on to tell me she wanted to be with me forever but that it’s not realistic at the moment. Her demeanor was warm and kind, but gradually she started getting more distant, she doesn’t even want to be friends. I made the mistake of trying to vent my feelings to her a week after, then I got blocked because she said she can’t be the person to hear them (but that she loved what we had and will always cherish it). I subsequently got mad and told her I’m not talking to her for awhile. She didn’t even wish me a happy birthday which broke my heart to bits. Eventually I made the mistake of reaching out to her again a month later to try and figure out if she has any feelings left so I could figure out if I can move on, she said we’re broken up and I’m free to date whoever.

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I’m hurt to see she’s already dating someone else, the guy lives at a mansion which makes it feel that much worse. I don’t know what to do, I’ve tried going on dating sites but can’t bring myself to feel attracted to anyone else. Working on myself is definitely something I’m doing, but I can’t help but feel loss and longing for her as she was like family to me. She realizes I will be in a position to settle down a few years down the line but says she can’t wait, she says she can’t handle the stress in my life at the moment. I do have a decent bit of student loans to deal with and while I do work to pay the bills, it’s not the career she was expecting (I am looking for a medical residency and didn’t match into one this year; this shook up my confidence in my future leading me to be uncertain about what I need to do, which I’m sure affected her decision).

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I’m not sure what to do. I feel lost and find it hard to focus on work. My self confidence took a huge hit too.