Dating : I don’t know what I want yet I feel as though it’s too much

Dating : I don’t know what I want yet I feel as though it’s too much

I’ve not been in a relationship for 2 years now, I’m a final year university student a few years older than my classmates and I miss the feeling of having someone to give love to. I’m a man btw.
Ive met up with several women but just to sleep with it to be fwb never anything more serious. My mind automatically disqualifies these women from anything serious.
I wonder if I’ll be like this for a while or are my standards just so high that no one fits them,
Also is it too much to want someone who A) will stick around B) I find beautiful C) is intelligent and humorous D) has a big heart
I tell myself I’ll meet her later is it possible I’m blocking my own blessings?
A side issue is I don’t know how comfortable I can be with female friends as much as I’d like to be open etc I feel like it leads them into developing feelings when really I’m just lonely and want someone to talk about certain things I carry in my heart.