Dating : Wish I could keep a heart of stone.

Dating : Wish I could keep a heart of stone.

I’ve [25f] been seeing someone [29m] I met on Coffee Meets Bagel for a few months now — we actually have similar interests, and he’s really sweet. The sex is nice. He’s very consistent. I’m kinda falling for him.

I just feel like one of these days he won’t text me back.
Maybe after 3 days…
Then maybe after 5 days…
Then maybe not at all. Boom. Ghosted, again. I bored him to death.

I haven’t felt this safe (in terms of not being hurt while dating) with someone I actually liked in a long time. I’m scared that my heart is letting him in, a little at a time, but that he’ll disappear one day… like they always do.

We’ve never defined the relationship, if there is one, and I don’t plan to. I guess if he ghosts me, then that’s that, but… I just don’t want to hurt when that happens. I just want to keep my heart of stone, if possible. I wish I didn’t like him as much as I do.

I’m honestly a little sad just by being with him because I’m sure that he’ll leave me at some point. I won’t cling to him when he does, but I’ll definitely cry by myself for a few days. I have decent self esteem normally, but not when it comes to dating. It’s just so hard to find someone, and then even harder to keep them.